It's that time of the year again where I tell you another excuse as to why I stopped blogging for a while even though I promised to do it differently from now on. Well, I'm tired of doing that. I'm tired of writing excuses. If I don't upload to this blog for multiple weeks or months because I don't feel like sharing so be it. I'm not trying to turn this into a business, and this is my space, so I might as well do what I want with it.
The past few months of my life have been interesting. This whole year has been very interesting and very different to all the years before. I finally left full-time education and am now sat in London, three months into my journey abroad of my gap year. Am I happy? Am I frustrated? I don't really know. I'm not really sure how I'm feeling about a lot of things these days. There's a lot of confusion in my head, a lot of things I'm trying to figure out at the same time, not necessarily in a bad way, but it's just taking time to figure out where I want to go in my life, what I want to achieve and who I want to be. As much as I didn't have a "this abroad experience changed my life for the best" moment, I can see that it is changing me and the view that I have on life and a lot of things that come with it. 2018 has been a year of a lot of tears and confusion, but also of growth, which I am really thankful for, even though it can be very frustrating at times. Things have not being going as perfectly as I wished for, but somehow I'm still making progress personally. I'm still learning a lot about myself and I'm learning to be much more independent, which is beautiful.
I am not sure where I will be in two months time, who I will be and what I will be doing, but I know that eventually I am going to make the right decisions for myself, even though right now it all feels like nothing is going anywhere and I'm going to get stuck in another rud. I'm a firm believer in the saying that everything happens for a reason, and every decision you make is eventually the right one for you. Every decision we take turns into a lesson for ourselves. It can be a positive or a negative one, but eventually, either of them are there to help us grow and shape us into the people who we are meant and want to be.
Last night I watched this amazing documentary on Netflix about Tony Robbins. Interestingly, although he has been doing this job for a long time, I had never actually heard of him. And it was so fascinating to hear his thoughts and very motivating. I often have a very hard time applying words like his to my life for the long-run, but I feel like it's worth giving a try. If you feel like you are stuck in your life right now, or if you just generally need some motivation and inspiration to pick your life back up, I really recommend you to watch his documentary.
I don't really know what this post is about to be honest, but then I guess that's what my type of update posts are usually like. I'm just trying to get some thoughts down.
I think this blog is going to have a lot less "planned" content on it from now on maybe, and a lot more about thinking processes and things that are on my mind. Maybe. Maybe not. We shall see. We shall see how often I will even post, but I guess this is it for now. I'm still trying to figure out my spot in the blogging sphere.
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